That's how I have always been portrayed, "the nerdy kid." I am always at least 10 minutes early to any engagement. I over analyze every situation. I think 10 steps ahead. I always think of what could happen. I know random factoids. I'm the quiet, won't approach you except once in a blue moon and when I do, I get shot down. Because i'm shy, always wanting to get to the point, never wanting to get off focus people have always thought of me as a nerdy bitch. I guess in some cases you can consider me a nerd in that I love to learn. Gaining information without interruption is very important. But when I get called a bitch because I am shy is people's normal reaction but it is very hurtful. It's especially hurtful becuase people talk. And when they talk, word gets around that I'm apparently a bitch which in turn leaves me with close to no friends and no opportunity to make any becuase they don't want to give me the time of day. I haven't even been out with a boy in almost two years. It would be nice to be like those people who have someone wanting to hang out without me feeling like I'm being a burden all the time. I've failed at being a normal teenager.
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