This week I reconciled with my best friend since second grade. We had a major falling out due to mistreatment on her part and on my part that started in eighth grade. I had made the choice to go to a different school than our home school for educational, personal and bullying reasons. When I told her this, she started to treat me bad and I treated her bad and our friendship fell and I broke apart the next school year and the cycle kept growing. Then december '09 came and I'd reached my last straw and told her to get out of my life. Then we reconciled in January. Then she mis-interpreted something I said and it was apparent that neither her nor I was ready to have our friendship back quiet yet. I found out my brother had been talking to her which I resent to this day because I am an adult & was going to reach out when I was ready, but I took the plunge and hung out with her. There's still the black elephant there. No it's not white because white elephants are beautiful and to me represent something that is good to be there, black ones are the topics and feelings you both know still hurt down to the last pinky toe's nail. I doubt we will ever be truly the same as we were before eighth grade. Before our friendship changed drastically. And tonight, that's what's killing me.
How do you reconcile differences?
How do you approach difficult situations?
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